Cant sleep, so I guess i’ll update this jonk
Made it home safe. Chill bday till the evening when I shipped 700 and drove home tipsy.. smh
Losing more than ever in poker. Conclusion, I suck at poker haha. Its hard to find a poker player that actually profits from poker tho. The poker pros. But I have seen a few of them since I’ve been dealing. Bammas are disciplined as shit. Some play strictly 1/3. If the game changes to 2/5 later in the night, they cash out. They asked to get dealt out of No Limit Omaha when the table decides to do it one hand per round late at night. Whereas me, I shove blind in Omaha when Im stuck haha. I’ve tried playing tight. Tried playing loose. Still cant win. I guess I just dont have the poker instincts anymore. Which a close friend did point out to me. Use to win alllll the time. Either everyone else got better or I got worst. The hell if I know, prolly a combination of both.
27 was an alright year for me till recently. Moved back to MD, which is GOOD. Cali is the worst. Great place to visit, dont get me wrong. But living? fuhgettaboutit. Came back to MD, picked up dealing gigs, started my own game. Multiple tables every monday… Then I get robbed. Shotgun pointed at me with the bamma sayin “I dont like you” then cocks it… Thankfully nothin happens. They take my phone and I lose all my contacts. Yet I still push to deal. I take too many risks. Its hard for me to get a regular job when Im makin 300-800 a night… Even if I work 2 nights a week, its good money. But I gamble too much. And there’s no future in it. Not house games anyway….
Needa do something different. Stop taking so many risks. I thought about it the other day and almost everything I do in life is risky. Every decision I make pretty much… Horrible. Hard to get away from fast money tho. Something needs to change. I’d like to say Ima stop playing poker till I build a bankroll. But that probably wont happen. Whatever it is, I needa do something different. Maybe I’ll sober up tomorrow and figure out what that is. 28 should be a good year tho. MJ got his first ring at 28. So he must’ve just been entering his prime. Bron finally got one, he turns 28 the year he got one… Should be a good year. Lookin forward to it. One things for sure. 28 will be a whole lot different than the previous 27.